BEHIND THE SCENES
Young and Stupid
This is a real confession
Not much to add to the text, really. She goes on holiday with one goal and one goal only. And claims still to love Koen. To make it worse, she thinks she is helping him with losing her virginity to a strange man.
Selfish reasons
Her reasons are not to help Koen getting over his anxiety to tear her maidenhead. She wants to know if her submissive feelings are real with another man. She wants to know if this is just Koen, or that she can come by being humiliated by any man.
Despite the seemingly lighthearted tone of her younger diary entries, we learn that the experiences she recorded have actually weighed heavily upon her ever since.
