BEHIND THE SCENES
Confession
Finally
I initially conceived of this book as a diary. Before writing other parts, I wrote most of her diary chapters. Yet it took 29.632 words to get to the diary part of her story.
But First
First, we have to deal with the cage under the bed. Sylvia is confused. She doesn’t understand why she gets excited in her cage, where she can only hear her partners are making love.
spoiler alert
We transition into a phase where Sylvia comes to accept that both lovers love her. But she cannot. The past is weighing heavily on her. First there are confessions to to be made.
The function of confession
Confessing can be really good for the soul because it helps you let go of heavy feelings. Think of it like cleaning out a cluttered room in your mind. When you admit your mistakes or share your hidden feelings, you often feel a huge weight lift off your shoulders. This can lead to:
- Emotional Relief: Just like talking to a friend about something that’s been bothering you, confessing can help you release feelings of guilt or shame.
- Healing and Growth: By acknowledging what went wrong, you open the door to forgiving yourself and learning from the experience, which can help you grow as a person.
- Better Relationships: Being honest about your actions can also help repair trust with others, strengthening your relationships and becoming more genuine.
- Inner Peace: Ultimately, confessing can bring you a sense of relief and inner peace, as you no longer have to carry the burden of your secrets.
In simple terms, when you confess, you’re taking a step toward healing, making it easier to move forward with a lighter heart and a clearer mind. And that is why Koen “forces” Sylvia to read her diary out loud.
On the stories online site, I had to make do with showing she was reading from her diary by using a bold font. On Krabbels she is writing in her own handwriting (Google Fonts Borel). I am very happy with it. This is Sylvia’s handwriting.
Coming out
Coming out is one of the most terrifying experiences in your young life. You risk losing the acceptance and support of those closest to you, which can feel like a deep personal loss. It forces you to face the possibility of discrimination or rejection from society, leaving you vulnerable to judgment and isolation. Additionally, it means confronting your own fears and insecurities about who you are, which can be an emotionally overwhelming experience.
I wrote this later because I want the reader to understand how deeply rooted Koen’s anxieties are.
